11.06.2016

Focus

  How does one shift their focus? 
I've dreamed of marriage since I was a little girl. Now I'm 21 and still dreaming. I'm not inlove with anyone. I don't even have anyone I know well enough to say "yes, I definitely want to date them.". There have been a few guys in which I've been curious about, but that's it. 

  The thing is, I feel like I'm in a season of just being a friend. Not getting hung up on anyone or dating. Just working on my friendship skills. So, ok. That's fine. My problem is, I dream. I have for as long as I can remember. I dream of what my life will look like, and as much as I try, I can't leave a guy out of the picture. I also can't just dream of an imaginary guy. I mean, my dreams depends upon what type of person he is. Where our likes, passions, and aspersions meet, the dream begins. 

  So basically, my dreams are not helpful in taking my focus off of my desire to be married. 
I honestly don't know what the answer is. I mean, I'm a dreamer. I just am. So do I somehow turn my dreams off? Or is there something else to be done. 


Shalom